Thursday, April 19, 2007 6:34 AM
life's not good for me.been braving and putting on those ugly smiles.but deep down in me, this life is terrible enough.how can i ever learn to lead when i can't even follow.simple instructions like redo-ing maths,i forgotten to stapler the second half of th paper.i did do! i stayed back to complete.i made miss tham v disappointed in me, by doing th wrong thing.i'm very sorry, th first time i got scolded in class. it's a sin.why am i laughing when i was being scolded.why must i always make everyone disppointed in me.i'm just not good enough.saw sandra and rick's message, i cldn't reply(:but, thanks. you guys been great.have been telling myself to let go.Let go, please.if only i'm perfect, i'll get what i want. eveything, but i'm just not.please don't ask so much from me,for when i breakdown, you won't be able to take it.Glance at my badge, and make me sad.i wonder whether the badge is just for show.To me, i'm still proud to be a council.
