Burning bridges Baby,

Thursday, May 29, 2008 12:01 AM

I REALLY FEEL LIKE SWITCHING TO PRIVATE.
I REALLY ADMIRE MY DEAR ____ FR BEING ABLE TO BLOG WITHOUT HIDING. I FEEL THE VISIBILITY, I FEEL THE REAL HER IN HER POSTS.
RIGHT NOW, I DON'T WANT & I WANT THE WHOLE WORLD TO KNOW HOW I FELT JUST NOW. LISTEN, THIS POST IS IRONIC.

Shaking your asses and showing your figure meanwhile dancing in a PARADE SQUARE. Now tell me will you ever do it. I bet most people will give me that quizzical look or even the roll-eyes expression. Hah, we're even mistaken to be practising fr ROD._. But whatever it is, we did that yesterday under Doris' supervision. Yknw, i rly hate myself fr not being able to dance well. I'ld often visualise th grad seniors dancing so well, gathering everyone's gazes. I can't believe i almost screwed up th Semifinals today. ): I arrived at 10plus in th morning in schl, teaching th other members of my dance group th new steps ive figured out. It went smoothly! yes. very. I can't even believe we managed to finish it just in tht few hrs. I happily & naively believe we'll do very well on stage. It wasn't that case.. One practice on stage and i went blank. Okay, i've to admit i saw this Girl at th corridor of th hall. This particular girl gives me a weird feeling, i didn't like it. Next, i stood infront. Being in th limelight takes alot, i just didn't have wht it takes i guess. I felt alone & it was as though everyone were looking at me. I didn't like it as much, i panicked. ): I just stood there while th music keeps going, going & going.

My dancemates cldn't believe it. I know, it's hard fr me to believe it too. I rmbr teachers & tutors mentioning not to panic and stress yourself in th examination hall because your mind tends to go BLANK. It didn't happen to me of course, but it did today. That feeling is scary, like you're paralysed yknow. Gosh. We sneaked to some places to practice while th other contestants went up. I was faster thn th others in th dance, some steps different. Like how th hell did it turn out this way? I TAUGHT THEM AND I MYSELF DID WRONG. (It's not a very honourable thing to mention, i just need to.) I felt mad, perhaps at myself or maybe at th pplr who criticize me. It's not tht i can't take criticism but it's too much. So i walked off, i headed to Kaiqian. I just told her what went wrong and so, she consoled me. (oh my girl, you're so loved!) I didn't know at one point of time i cried. It was Twin. I guess her words touched me. Although she had been th one correcting my mistakes tgt with yeelian and at times eugenie, what she said rly made me just feel better and lesser in guilt.

So i told myself i can do it. I MUST DO IT ANYWAY, next up is us.
Th percussion pplr cheered fr us & i saw Grace looking at me with a smile. (: I was thankful fr tht. & thn Adibah fr shouting i can do it. Also, the juniors fr saying " Seniors Jiayou! "

Really, i appreciated that. Though i've to say we rly had very little time to prepare due to th late notice. It's not meant to be an excuse, it's th fact here. Went up, danced. Made some mistakes, gathered some comments. That's it. It's not good enough, that's not what i wanted at all.

Okay, th flu medicine's side effect is acting up. Im feeling drowsy, i need my Pillow.
Loves to all.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008 6:24 AM

Today : DOWN WITH SERIOUS FLU/ BLOCKED NOSE.

Went to schl and was late fr MT intensive. /:
My discussion topic fr oral sucks, i wonder how im going to make it fr 'Os. -.- I have alr skipped many tuitions fr Maths and Sciences this 2 weeks due to Dance, YT concert, MT intensive. I feel super annoyed that i can't attend tuition, weird feeling that ive never had before. I've yet to touch my hols assignment, v normal but i feel th burden(especially English, man.) Zzz. After intensive, i had Stomach upset. Haha, that's like so sudden.

I met jonny in class. :D I asked him fr donations fr th myanmar and china victims. He's th first donar! Haha. Kind soul, he even procceeded to going around w me asking others fr donations. We collected $81 bucks fr th victims. Thanks everrrryone! (WifeyGwen donated th most, love her to bits eh! ) My dad gave me a new card now, anyone interested please look out fr Me. [:

Yeelian's cousin drove us to my block & jonny left. YT concert is a big headache. Things aren't going well. All thanks to Miss WPM, Thank you with all my heart. -.- Kuanyi joined us at my house after quite some time, thn we headed back to schl aft learning some steps. Doris came & gave comments on our dances. Blablabla, in th end we ended up dancing in th parade square. And so People thought we're preparing fr ROD._. Miss Zhang says because we wants to borrow th radio fr half an hour, we've to prepare a performance fr assembly. Omg, like i'll ever do it ;D

Home. Disappointed. Stress. Nuts.
Yesterday was a better day, ALL FUN AND JOKES. (:

Yesterday : SORE THROATSXSXSX!

Had MT intensive & so i had to skip dance. I can remember seeing yeelian bidding goodbye to me at th door with that puppylook. Lol, MT intensive and got back my oral results. Not very ideal or maybe Very Not Ideal. After lesson i rushed to Dance. Yeelian and Jieying said LiangLaoShi gave 魔鬼训练. I must have missed alot /: After dance, had meeting on th coming dance camp and left for lunch with th girls.

Went fr concert practice but th judge was hospitalised. Miss Wong gave briefing saying there's not much time left, blablabla. I yawned very loud like oops im sorry i-really-didn't-mean-it. F.Y.I, We only got to know our results from Miss Siti just before schl ends after looking up fr Miss Wong fr like umpteen times. Each time she'll give us that rly very dao look with that " You still have alot of time, don't worry we'll inform you. " Hehehe, ohhhhhh! Alot of time!!!!!!! -.- Enough said. Hey, If you didn't even have th heart to invite th performers frm th 2nd audition just speak your mind. Unlike her, Miss Siti's reaction was " You're not informed? You're definitely In!" & gave me that very warm beam. :D I can't believe it, Miss Wong was actually th previous Dance-TIC.

Forget bout that. Aft the briefing we're given time t practice our dance at th dance studio. Together with Veron's group, Sec1s and some singers/ pianist. Yeah, practised and left. Headed to Somerset once again with Yeelian & without our Kaiqian. Grr, she didn't pick up my phone ): With Yeelian and her sharp eyes, we spotted LeiWin and Yvonne at th seats beside th entrance! (: We went forward and had a nice talk with them. Woah, you bet we miss them alot. ): th feeling of looking up to them and admiring them is back. Th way they make us laugh, I feel like a sec1 again. Aha. :D Leiwin even initiate fr me and yvonne to take a photo tgt. (: After th byebye, Yeelian & I took th train. AWWWW, IT'S EMPTY. Thank God :D I thought we'll be squeezed like burgers. We couldn't stop laughing on th train, Yeelian stop your nonsense. Hahah xD As a result, we didn't alight at our stop._. we reached cityhall and i blindly pulled yeelian t th opposite cabin. ( I must be thinking of shopping, we went to BUGIS._.) Realising we're on th wrong train, we went back and take th train again. Okay th journey was very fun! [: We saw this lady with verrrry big breast revealing half of her breasts, eeeew so unsightly.

It's Leiwin & Yvonne! [:

I rly Miss her! ]:

It's us you're looking at. Rub your eyes?

Went to Uncle Richard's shop and thn reconfirmed th dance tee colour again. His English is rly amazing. Mr Tan has a competitor! Blablabla, on th way back to Mrt Station we went past the ERP system, th light was shone down in a dark evening, told yeelian to take a shot fr me. I was visualising an ANGEL :D thn i saw!!!!! i look like some anon blackie. -.- Took train to Marina Bay and back to yishun. Saw one guy with an ultra cool bag! His bag is brown and looks like durian because of thorns sticking out. LOL.

BELIEVE ME, THIS IS NO KID.

YEELIAN IS INFLUENCED BY ME ):

THE WAY SHE ASKS WHETHER SHE LOOKS LIKE TWEETYBIRD IS TOTALLY 'LOL'. HAHAHA. :D

Sunday, May 25, 2008 11:06 PM

3E5 is the king. (:

my dear wifey, GWEN.

Our MissPay!

Twin cky!

MY PULAU SEMAKAU LANDFILL TRIP.

( Will update the interesting sights in pulau semakau soon. [: )

Saturday, May 24, 2008 10:28 AM

♥, DanceMates.

YeeLian, LiTong, KaiQian! [:

We share this passion & it never dies. (:

Th times we stood by each other remains vividly in my head.

I love you girls (including ky!) ;D

Sunday, May 18, 2008 2:19 PM

Happy Vesak Day. (:

Let's pray fr the earthquake victims in China and the Cyclone victims in Myanmar. The Moon, our light. Can you see? Can you look into their hearts? Why the pain?

Pray for peace. Stop the sufferings. Do your part. Tzuchi volunteers will be going to the streets asking fr your donation soon. Don't runaway from them! Be it a cent, It's the thought that counts.

Yesterday I went to Ball with Kuanyi Alvin and Shaojie at 325. (:

It's been some time since we went thre to play. Rly reminds me of the old times. It's like i can feel th others' presence. Charlene, Lydia, Sandra, Joyce, Szexin, Ruijing, Esmond, Jieying. (: Aft playing awhile, 2guys asked fr next team. Guess how they asked fr next team?

*Fingers giving the Twist sign* "二挑, 玩玩而已."

Aft that Alvin and Shaojie played w them while we watched. The guy wore revealed his orange underwear. Lol, and th both of them did some weird yet funny actions. Keep saying each other 'LaoLan' -.- Hahaha, we kept laughing. Yeah, thn played awhile more before leaving to meet my sisters and Mum at Northpoint. Headed to Tzuchi fr 浴佛典礼. We had to stand and wait fr our turn while th music played. I can't stand still, x: did stupid actions with my sister. We did ripple like kallang wave. Ok that was embarrassing. Heh! Thn we went fr exhibition at Tzuchi, NICEEEE (:

There's Guzheng. (:

书法！

Spacious Heart. ;D

I used to tell you this. Rmbr?

Drawings.

谜语师伯 & My sister. Don't shy lah! [:

My Dad, My sister & The charity box. (:

Join the GreatLove. (:

Cool! [:

Had Swensens. :D Heh, on th way home saw Kuanyi and guys at NSCC. (: So i went to join them and they said I'm very white fr the first time. Haha, cos i want to change Tzuchi's uniform & my mum coincidentally brought white shirt fr me. Lol. We went to 213 aft some time cos we wanted to play too! (:

Us! [:

My dad said ive to apply something called 青草油 fr my wound to heal faster.
He said that's what they used to apply in th old days. & the feeling is very shiok, THAT'S WHAT HE SAID. /: I APLIED AND IT'S NOT SHIOK AT ALL. ):

Watched Teevee on the Earthquake.

JAY CHOU! :D

BangBangTang! (:
Aww. Ao Quan's sooooo cute.

The celebrities, President马英九 & his wife were collecting funds from the people thru phone.

They had successfully collected 2hundred million taiwan dollars fr thm. (:
I saw S.H.E, Yang Zong Wei, Ming Dao, Hei Se Hui MeiMei, FeiYuQing, FeiGe, XiaoYanJie, Jackie, Wang LeeHom, Tao Ze, Cyndi Wang, Da S & Xiao S, LiangJingRu, Pin Guan, Fahrenheit's Calvin, Jolin.. etc. They're all thre putting in their effort. You can too! [:

BYEEE. :D