很想回到过去， 但那应该不会发生。 到现在，我也无法分辨自己是对是错。
我不理解自己，何况是你？而我只能往前看，因为是我选择这条路，已没有办法回头。
但我想，最终我应该是选择回自己吧。 我走不了爱情这段路，太辛苦太难理解了。
只有选择自己，才不会伤害对方。 我一次又一次的伤害你，心里也很难受。
希望你能原谅我，找到真心爱你的人。记得要开心, 和你的美好回忆，我会记在心里。i know you're hurt. but you kept quiet. i can see this, from your expression.
i look into your eyes. i see myself. my very own reflection.
i know i'm the cause. but i refuse to face this.
i don't know what i'm doing and i'm sorry if my foolish acts have hurt you so much.
sometimes it makes me wonder, how could i ever do this to you, when we were so happily in our you&me world. The fault lies in me, never you. and i blame myself too.
different people had different teenage. i think mine was the most complicated one.
i was destined to meet you this way this time. and hurt you this way which i never wanted and intended to. i imagined you and me, old and still holding hands.
i get so jealous and so sensitive easily. but i never once thought that, i'm doing this too.
and now, everything's so weird and not in place. i'm not getting used to this.
running away seemed like the only solution. but i'm not going to.
even though in the end, i know i'm choosing no one. so that i'ld hurt no one further.
i'ld always remember that once, i loved somebody who treats me right.
but i hurt tht someone once and again. which taught me a lesson which i'm going to learn from it.
ANN'S POST :
To me, love is like having a key in your hand and trying to unlock the right door. You go to this door, thinking that it might just be this one, then struggle to unlock it with your key. However, it just wouldn't happen and while trying to unlock it, you hurt yourself.Most say love will get yourself hurt. It's not the hurt that you have to remember at the end, it's to realise you've to be more sincere or more sensitive towards another person.
thanks ann, it's you who inspired me to writing this post.
to that very important someone, you're going to get someone better than me. i'm pretty sure of that. cos' i'ld always remember you. and those lovely moments.
but i need someone who makes you happy and give you what i cant.
a perfect girl, and not me.
