I reconcilled with my dad, but yet i dont feel at all happy.
Thanks close ones, for persuading me to say sorry to dad on his birthday, which is today. Yes, it wasn't hard. At all. but it didn't really came from th bottom of my heart. I said sorry, for th sake of sorry, what's th point? Tell me. I'm moody now, listening to prettie's blog song. It just sound so sad yet touching. But it doesn't apply to me. i don't seem to appreciate things my parents give me. In fact, i'm numb already. Don't shower me with too much love, i can't take it. And don't expect me to give th same love in return, cos as you two said, i've no feelings? So i do. and i want to
runaway): Too many problems, kept inside, driving me
CRAZY.Bigbrother told me to look at my future, and i told him, future? You wont know when you die, future to me is not a thing to predict. And, if i ever have a future, and end up jobless, thn i'll be a teacher(: Hahaha. Not kindergarden :D
i can't seem to love again, that may be a good sign, but what if i die away one day.
how many, actually feel sad.
