If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, me.

I remember when i was very young, i'm closer to my maid(Nanni) thn i am to my parents. She influenced me alot, well i don't know whether it's in a good way or not, but looking back those days are crazy! She's smart, but sometimes in an inappropriate way. Haha. She listened to Westlife's songs almost everyday & danced while doing housework. Days passed and i grew to love english songs. Which reminds me, i've a Malay-American mixblood friend in my class and we kept singing in class! lol. After that, my maid's into cosmetics and so did i. Little did i know, those cosmetics are cheap goods and now my lips has permanently-different colour from my sisters'. Well, unless i bit them off which i tried but it's damn painful. Oh, i rmbred i had a crush on an upper primary guy tht time. I was only primary3 i think. Yah, it may sound as crazy as it is but young girls have fantasies. Lol. Anyway, she brought me to his block and shouted his name up the builiding. You can imagine it. ;x

She left after 4years and it became very hard for me to adapt life without her. Heard that she saw an angmoh on her flight back home, they hit off and got married. That's her. Haha. I think this story is dragging. Chopchop. After her departure, my cousin came to stay at our house for some time and he's into chinese music. So i switched again. That's practically about it.

Oh! you know what, i had a bad dream last night. ): I dreamt that i was pregnant! I could feel the bump in my stomach and the touch is so real that even whn i wakeup i could still rmbr it. Lucky i didn't dreamt of the process of labour. Phew. And guess what, i dreamt that i wanted to abort it but rmbred mom saying there'll be retribution cos' that's equivalent to killing a life. In the end i broke down crying cos i knew that by the time Dance's going for syf i wouldn't be able to dance with that big stomach. :x I even dreamt that the 9pm show's character (Buqun) slept infront of me -.- Forgot his name but i know he's Yeelian's idol. lol.

PS : Thanks MissPay for the 4books you introduced, i'll read and return. (:

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• Saturday

I went for violin lesson and cried on the way home thinking i'm rly useless. He says that at this rate of improvement, i'll not make it for the next grade. I don't get why but he never fail to make me cry whenever he said hurtful things like that, of course there's more but i don't want to think bout it already. Sometimes i rly feel like giving up violin. I even threw my scores and books on the floor in one of the quarrels with my dad. But i guess i'll never have the choice to give up on it. My dad really hopes that i'll become some famous violinist in the future. He also says that it'll be very hard to find jobs for my generation and violin can be a way out. He'd spent 200bucks per month for 3 years just for my vioin fees alone and how could i let him down?

My teacher says that i should only focus on studies and violin now, but i simply can't walk the life that he wants me too. It's my life that i'm leading, i've other commitments as well. I'ld rather i fall and get up myself thn i've nvr fall and never tasted the tears of failure. La femme desperado's last episode's was on Fri. It's a very nice hongkong drama. (: I think i've really learnt alot from that show. What scares me is the reality of the modern society. The many faces of people and the schemes+betrayal. Dad says it's very common and i've to learn to not trust people that easily. That, i guess i know well enough already. Anyway, i think Xiao Qi's cute! ;D

Watched Teevee/VCD(s) for the whole afternoon till midnight. Lol. Mr bean's holiday sucks -.- I not stupid2 is very nice! Soo touching. There's one scene when my sister and i reacted the same way. It's really funny. Haha. And also hotshot, the vcd is lagging behind where we stopped! So, sister and i went online to find. In the end we watched ep13 and ep15. Ep16's not out and I can't find ep14 ): Anybody knows? We also watched 200pounds beauty. Hanjun looks like Xiaoqi! ;D I've got his wallpaper now. Heheheh. [:

Last of all, I've got a sister-sitting errand till tuesday. I guess taking care of them is not that bad, i stroke my sister t bed last night :D Bad thing is, Granny's been coming to visit us everyday and we are so unable to communicate with her because she speaks dialect and due to this, it left her bored and we can't go crazy at home with her supervision! ): But the best thing is, I get paid! Ciao! (: